Mademoiselle


ps
November 7, 2009, 6:16 pm
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friend



highway
November 5, 2009, 7:49 pm
Filed under: blabberings

This is not general surgery in miniature; these are the tiny humans; these are children; they believe in magic, they play pretense, there is fairydust in their IV bags. They hope and they cross their fingers and they make wishes. And that makes them more resilient than adults. They recover faster, survive worse. They believe. In paeds we have miracles and magic, in paeds anything is possible.



Decisions
November 5, 2009, 7:05 pm
Filed under: blabberings, work

Henry is almost right. Applying for jobs is like taking up another module, except it carries with it greater gravity in the consequences of your choices. I don’t think I get what I really want to venture into, although I am pretty confident with what I think I can be good at and what careers play to my strengths.

For one thing I love Economics, and English. I love to, much as this will brink on sounding daft, see theoretical framework take shape in the realities of markets and I love the creativity that comes with expressing what the naked eye can see into what someone else can read and hear. And maybe that’s what puts me in a rather interesting dilemma. Do I allow my precariously egoistical drive to dictate the work I choose to do, or will I heed my interests and go into something few people would understand or necessarily see enviable? Am I as civil-servicesque as I used to make myself out to be? Or will I crave the intensity of elsewhere?



Legacy
October 24, 2009, 1:17 pm
Filed under: christian living

The road to the promised land runs past Mount Sinai. The road to the promised land runs past Mount Sinai.

And to Zion is not going to be an easy trek either, but it will definitely be much easier with one less baggage. And though it hurts so much to ditch and leave behind something that one has grown so used to having around, eventually one will get used to it and soon, soon the steps will get lighter.

And much like God was at the Calvary, there he will wait with open arms. Timelessly.



1
October 14, 2009, 9:38 am
Filed under: christian living

How marvellous
How wonderful
Is my Saviour’s love for me



Hebrews
September 26, 2009, 9:34 am
Filed under: christian living, work

By faith Louise stepped out and applied for all the jobs she wanted, though having set her heart on only a couple -but faltered halfway, and her inadequate circumstances clouded God’s vision for her.

-Hebrews 11:11c (insert)



(Not in) London
September 18, 2009, 9:30 pm
Filed under: tales of sunshine

This reticence in online journalism can be explained in large by my very abrupt transition back into studenthood. Dorm life has died down a little now that I’ve unpacked and have got all my things where I want them to be (books on the left, papers on the right…). I’m not at all worried by my miserly collection of three skirts and a pair of jeans, or concerned that I haven’t got proper utensils and that the lady at the grocery store atrociously deterred (sorry) my purchase of a utility knife because a Singaporean ID is by no means valid as proof of age.

I wholeheartedly miss Kuah. The city has never seemed less familiar without him around, and it feels, because we have spent so much time together, there isn’t anyone else left in this city that I would be as eager to meet. I have allowed my thoughts to wander back to him in every significant occasion, to what he’s doing and how he’s getting along, and I haven’t dared revisit the places we used to frequent -I’d like to think I’m shielding myself from the raw, raw pangs of nostalgia.

But I’ve gotten into a nice mini routine on my own, involving waking up at 5am to do my quiet time, read, and write. Those times are the best, when my mind isn’t fully awake but isn’t laden with the stale thoughts of yesterday -that’s when I can produce the most honest words in my drafts. This seems like jetlagging though.



-
September 10, 2009, 4:13 pm
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“But you must finish this phase of your life

so we can be happily together.”



You laid aside Your Majesty
September 6, 2009, 1:53 am
Filed under: christian living

You laid aside Your majesty,
Gave up everything for me,
Suffered at the hands of those you have created.
You took all my guilt and shame,
When You died and rose again;
Now today You reign, in heaven and earth exalted.

I really want to worship You, my Lord,
You have won my heart and I am Yours
For ever and ever; I will love You.
You are the only one who died for me,
Give Your life to set me free,
So I lift my voice to You, in adoration.



But so few have understood.
September 4, 2009, 12:59 pm
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The LORD will deliver me -in my loneliness He hears, and sees every single tear.

And it shall be no more.